Gary Beadle has admitted he was "devastated" by Charlotte Crosby's ectopic pregnancy and said he would have loved to have children with her.
The Geordie Shore star, who this week revealed he's looking to quit the show next year, opened up about his unborn child and said it "still hasn't kicked in" that he would have been a father.
"I would have loved it [having a baby with Charlotte], I can't really say now what would have been or what would have happened," he told Daily Mail Australia.
Speaking about his decision to stay filming Ex On The Beach 5 in Thailand while Charlotte was in hospital having life-saving surgery, Gary hinted at his regrets.
"If she’d said 'I’m in the worst pain ever, I can’t move, I’m dying', obviously I’d be on the next plane home. But she was like, 'I’m okay, don’t worry I’m fine,'" he said.
"Maybe I should have gone back. It still hasn’t kicked in. I was like shit, if it hadn't happened I would have a kid. Obviously I was devastated."
But after Char's recent comments about their on-off relationship, Gary says he wants nothing more to do with her.
"She said I was worse than a murderer, that to me was the final straw, I don't want to talk to her or about her" he went on.
"It's done, I'd never get back with Charlotte. It's done and dusted after five years.
"She's left Geordie Shore and I think she's dating other people. She needs to move on to the next chapter of her life and I want to do the same."
Actual sob.
Charlotte hasn't officially gone public with a new man, though she's heavily rumoured to be seeing model Ash Harrison after they were papped out on a date in Manchester earlier this week.
Gaz, meanwhile, isn't thought to be dating since he and Char broke up for good earlier this year.
However, his EOTB reappearance starts on Tuesday 19 August, and given his first act in the villa was to shag Jemma Lucy, we're pretty sure Charlotte's going to have a lot to say about it.