Tulisa on her post-drugs trial attitude: “It’s hard not to sound like a bitch”

The singer is worried her outlook comes across badly


by Owen Tonks |
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Tulisa Contostavlos is terrified her new confident attitude after bouncing back from her drugs trial hell makes her seem like “a bitch”.

The singer found herself caught in a newspaper sting and stood up in court after she was accused of arranging a cocaine deal for an undercover reporter.

Her trial collapsed in July after it was suspected one of the key witnesses had lied under oath, meaning she was never found guilty of the allegation.

The former X Factor judge made a return to the show this year to assist panelist Louis Walsh at the judges’ houses stage, but thinks people may take her new outlook the wrong way.

She told Attitude: “It’s hard to explain how I’ve changed without making it sound like I was a bad person before – or a bitch – but I just feel like I… I wasn’t a bad person, I just had a lot more to learn, and I could have been better.

“The year that I’ve had has brought out the best in me, if that makes sense. I do feel like I’ve put so many different areas of my life to the test: the way I think about things, the way that I approach things; becoming less judgmental and more understanding.”


This summer, the former N-Dubz star spoke of her suicide attempt when the stress of her trial got too much, but says her previous life experiences helped her cope with her troubles.

She added: “I think deep down I’ve always kept the hope. When people were like, ‘What do you think is going to happen?’, I’d be like, ‘My heart tells me I’m going to be better than ever but my head tells me to prepare for the worst.’

“So it is a bit of a battle. I wanted to believe, but at the same time you don’t want to be cocky, because it’s a life lesson. You have to feel like it’s all going to be over, so when you ride it out on a high you appreciate it even more.

“There were moments when I was like, ‘I don’t see how I’m going to come back from this. I can’t see it happening’, but then I’d be like, ‘No, I’ve gone through way too much crap for it to end like this.’”

GALLERY: Tulisa's face over the years


Tulisa Contostavlos' face over the years before and after surgery

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September 2007

At the MOBO Awards with Fazer and Dappy

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September 2009

At the O2 Silver Clef Awards 2009

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August 2009

Leaving the MOBO Awards in 2009

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November 2009

At a photocall for the T4 Stars of 2009

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December 2009

Leaving the London Studios after a session with N-Dubz and Mr Hudson

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April 2010

At a book signing for N-Dubz's autobiography N-Dubz: Against All Odds: From Street Life To Chart Life. 'Member that?

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April 2010

At the Lipsy launce in Movida London

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July 2010

Performing at London's Somerset House

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September 2010

Performing at Wembley actual Arena for BBC1 Xtra Live

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June 2011

At the X Factor auditions in Birmingham

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July 2011

At the X Factor auditions in London

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July 2011

Loving life at Hyde Park's Wireless Festival

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July 2011

Performing at T4 On The Beach in Weston-Super-Mare, Somerset

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October 2011

On the red carpet at the Pride of Britain Awards in London

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October 2011

Looking fresh faced at the X Factor studios in London

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April 2012

Posing outside the V&A Museum in London ahead of a birthday party

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May 2012

With biiiiiiig hair outside the O2 Arena for the 2012 X Facor auditions

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July 2012

Celebrating her 25th birthday in Ibiza

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September 2012

Signing copies of her new autobiography Honest Story So Far in Smiths

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October 2012

Taking her X Factor contestants - Jade Ellis, Ella Henderson and Lucy Spraggan - to the BBC Radio 1 studios in London

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October 2012

Posing on the red carpet at the world premiere of James Bond film Skyfall at London's Royal Albert Hall

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May 2013

With incredible poodle hair at the 2013 Sony Radio Academy Awards in London

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August 2013

Partying at London's Dstrkt club for friend Chelsee Healey's 25th birthday celebrations

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December 2013

Practising her best Nigella Lawson face for her first hearing at Westminster Magistrates Court over that drugs charge

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December 2013

Partying at Kelly Brook's bar Steam and Rye for her PA Gareth Varey's birthday

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January 2014

Waiting in the audience at the Celebrity Big Brother 2014 final night to support house cousin housemate Dappy

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July 15 2014

Striding into court for her drugs trial at Southwark Crown Court

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July 16 2014

Walking past the paps for day two of her drugs trial at Southwark Crown Court

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July 21 2014

Entering court just before her drugs trial collapsed, thanks to problems with the prosecurot's star witness

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