Birthdays should be a cause for celebration, but we’re told Cheryl, who’s turning 37 this week, has been doing far more reflecting than she has playing musical chairs. While she’s loving life as mum to three-year-old son Bear, an insider close to the Geordie star tells heat she still feels like she has a lot to achieve.
We’re told, “As she heads into her 37th year, Cheryl feels in a total headspin about where the time has gone. She thought by now she would have a happy marriage, four kids, maybe even a career in music management – and at times she struggles to put an optimistic spin on the future.” Our source adds that, “Cheryl always gets emotional about her birthday,” (which is something we can all relate to) adding, “This year, she’s accepted she’s going to have to make her dreams come true alone.”
“It doesn’t seem all that long ago that she turned 30 with a big party in Vegas and her life was going in a very different direction,” the source continues. “She was at her peak, with so many opportunities lined up, and living in LA with her ex Tre Holloway. But everything happened so quickly after that – marrying and divorcing Jean-Bernard [Fernandez-Versini], getting together with Liam, then splitting after having Bear, plus her solo career not really going anywhere… It all feels overwhelming for her.”
But our insider tells us Cheryl – ever the queen of reinvention – is determined to get back on track. And potentially joining the judging panel on Strictly Come Dancing is number one on the list.
Last week, it was reported that she was in talks with the BBC1 show, as Bruno Tonioli – who usually jets between the UK and US with his role on Dancing With The Stars – may not be able to join the panel this year due to flight restrictions. Bruno himself commented on the rumours last week, saying, “If Cheryl does end up doing it, there would be nothing wrong with that. She’s a lovely girl. I like her.”
Check out: Cheryl's transformation timeline
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1 of 402002 Cheryl Tweedy - Age 19
Cheryl Tweedy made her debut with pop band Girls Aloud in November 2002, while rocking the crazy noughties Fashion Trends.
2 of 402004 Cheryl Tweedy - Age 20
Cheryl slaying it in the tomboy baggy jeans and sneakers. And of cause the matching belt, top and earrings. And no outfit is complete 'till the pink sunnies come out.
3 of 402008 Cheryl Cole - Age 25
Cheryl Arriving at the National Television Awards wearing a a shoulder fall gown, with a pop of green down the bottom. This pin up hairstyle with the patterned chest and neck line is a win for sure!
4 of 402010 Cheryl Cole - Age 26
Cheryl performing songs from her first Debut Album as a Solo Artist at the opening of the Black Eyed Peas Concert in Dublin and is working it army style!
5 of 402006 Cheryl Cole - Age 23
YES! The highlight days. With Cheryl's not so brunette hair of hair, if it was not for the dimples, you would have to take a second glance to realize who just walked past. Still beautiful as ever in that champagne silk wrap dress with ex-hubby Ashley Cole.
6 of 402010 Cheryl Cole - Age 26
Cheryl with X Factor co-hosts after taking out the award for Most Popular Talent Show in 2010.
7 of 402013 Cheryl - Age 29
2013 saw the reunion of the Girls Aloud on their 'The Hits Tour 2013'. Man, how they have changed - definitely no baggy jeans and simple tops that for sure. Cheryl spreading her wings like she's walking down the runway of a Vic Secret show!
8 of 402014 Cheryl Fernandez-Versini - Age 30
If anyone knows how to rock a Red Carpet, its Cheryl Cole! Absolutely saying at the Foxcatcher Premier at the 67th Annual Cannes Film Festival, Cheryl sure knows how to pull off this textured black trail dress! Damn Gurl!
9 of 402003 Cheryl Tweedy - Age 20
Leaving the court house in '03, Cheryl is almost un recognizable in her 'worker mum' jeans and pale pink jacket. One thing Cheryl did not for get were the infamous pink tinted sunglasses from the early 2000's.
10 of 402007 Cheryl Cole - Age 24
This stunner continues to stun us in a floor length sequined high neck dress at the 2007 British Red Cross Ball.
11 of 402009 Cheryl Cole - Age 25
From her music video 'Parachute' in 2009, Cheryl met ex-boyf Derek Hough and, although the pair didn't last, they sure look like they mean business. Specially in that dramatic layered black dress!
12 of 402015 Cheryl Fernandez-Versini - Age 31
Mid 2015, Cheryl posted a pic on her Insta wearing a 'MillyByMichelle' two piece. This flattering piece brings back memories of Yves Saint Laurent fall-winter collection in 1965 he the striped and blocked colours. Perfect for a fun girls night out.
13 of 402016 Cheryl - Age 32
This sequined striped jumpsuit just screams powerful and successful!
14 of 402017 Cheryl Tweedy - Age 34
At the #GAME4GRENFELL charity event, Cheryl looked super casual and super hot all at once. Red lips to match those red high wait a line plants. Just ... YES!
15 of 402017 Cheryl Tweedy - Age 34
In October of 2017, the mum of one walked the runway during the Le Defile L'Oreal Paris for the Womenswear Spring/Summer 2018 collection. Pulling off a two-toned lippy with matching textured boots and jacket. One thing is for sure, Cheryl is #mumgoals! Liam, you are lucky man!
16 of 402016 Cheryl - Age 33
Mum to be Cheryl sure has a glow to her smile at the Gold Obsession Party in 2016 where she would have been around 4 months pregnant at the time with her first bub.
17 of 402003 Cheryl Tweedy - Age 19
Cheryl (Tweedy) in her Girls Aloud days sporting the tomboy style tracks and sneakers. Lets not forget our midriffs!
18 of 402003 Cheryl Tweedy - Age 20
Cheryl and her girl squad, Girls Aloud looked more united than ever in their early days in matching tracks.
19 of 402004 Cheryl Tweedy - Age 21
Who else would look this good sitting in a chair on stage performing on stage in three-qarters and flip flops? Imagine performing now in flip-fops?!
20 of 402004 Cheryl Tweedy - Age 21
Ah yes, the not-so-invisible invisible bra straps that we all wore, especially with our little boob-tube tops.
21 of 402004 Cheryl Tweedy - Age 21
The LBB tasseled dress with heels that we all of 3cm high. Man we were cool in the 2000's
22 of 402005 Cheryl Tweedy - Age 21
That bod! With low cut jeans and crop top tees talking over fashion, Cheryl and her sporty fit physique sure rocked these styles.
23 of 402005 Cheryl Tweedy - Age 21
Looking back on fashion, early naughties were an absolute shocker! That dark brown, not quite maxi, not quite knee length skirt with pointed shoes did not do the mint green satin corset any favours. We still love you, though, Cheryl!
24 of 402005 Cheryl Tweedy - Age 22
Our girl Cheryl looking so happy, but oh dear! Looks like the Girls Aloud girls were celebrating October fest... in July.
25 of 402005 Cheryl Tweedy- Age 22
That a lot-a pink! The Girls Aloud group performed for the T4 Poll Winters' Party Smash Hits show in what we could only assume to be Barbie inspired prom dresses.
26 of 402006 Cheryl Tweedy - Age 22
Cheryl arriving at the 2006 Alien Autopsy Premiere in an elegant evening coral dress, with a simple peep toe heel and shawl.
27 of 402006 Cheryl Cole - Age 23
Cheryl means business at the movie premiere of 'It's A Boy Girl Thing' in support of Elton John's AIDS Foundation. The shimmer striped blazer with buttoned down collard shirt is perfectly eventuated with the drop down sparkle necklace.
28 of 402007 Cheryl Cole - Age 24
Back to her dark burnet shoulder length locks, Cheryl poses for Girls Aloud's new single 'Sexy! No No No'. With the pain white sleeved low cut top, Cheryl teases us with that little smirk!
29 of 402007 Cheryl Cole - Age 24
With her square cut dead straight locks, Cheryl plays the Sexy Librarian quite well! With that neutral lippy, giving just enough colour and her see through tank, we say YES to this look at the London Fashion week in '07.
30 of 402008 Cheryl Cole - Age 24
Arriving at the '08 Brit Awards, Cheryl sure stood out in that yellow piece and barbie pink lip color, but WOW does that work! STUNNING
31 of 402008 Cheryl Cole - Age 25
Cheryl looked like she was in her element while walking the runway for the Fashion for Relief show during the London Fashion Week in '08. With a smile like that she definitely deserves the tiara!
32 of 402008 Cheryl Cole - Age 25
Cheryl wore quite the statement piece the the Girls Aloud Book Signing in '08. Making sure she gabbed the eyes of fellow fans, the yellow and black tiger stripped dress entrusted with that bright pink belt aught to do it!
33 of 402007 Cheryl Cole - Age 24
Cheryl appeared in style to the 2007 Samsung Launch for their new F20 Purple phone along side her girl squad. Dressed it a navy blue, knee length, bodycon dress, she absolutely killed this entrance! Loving the neck line on this one, Cheryl.
34 of 402008 Cheryl Cole - Age 25
It be safe to say that by now, Cheryl has become a pro at making entrances. With the full head of long full locks and that killer smile, Cheryl was sure to turn heads as she entered the Music Industry Trusts' Awards in '08.
35 of 402009 Cheryl Cole - Age 25
Once again slaying at another entrance, Cheryl stuns us by showing of her long toned legs in this white textured a line mini dress #legsfordays.
36 of 402009 Cheryl Cole - Age 25
Cheryl sure showed us how she burlesques' while performing at the 2009 Brit awards. The denim jeans are officially gone while performing!
37 of 402010 - Age 26
Giving Tom Cruise a run for his money in these Aviators, Cheryl is looking hot as coming down those stairs at the 2010 Brit Awards!
38 of 402010 Cheryl Cole - Age 26
The jean are back but the jeans of early 2000's are history! Cheryl arrives at BBC Radio 1 Studios in '10 super skinny white wash denim jeans with a leather sleepless jacket looking absolutely fab!
39 of 402010 Cheryl Cole - Age 26
Oh Yes! Cheryl giving us a it of a tease with the super high leg split in a simple-statement white dress arriving at the Annual Cannes Film Festival in '10. Love Love Love.
40 of 402011 Cheryl - Age 27
Sometimes simple is better, and Cheryl sure looked red hot arriving at the ELLE Style Awards in 2011.
“The talks with Strictly have got Cheryl really excited,” we’re told. “It would be a huge boost for her – especially after The Greatest Dancer was axed – and it would be an ideal job as Liam could have Bear at the weekends when she’ll be working on the show.”
And after Cheryl herself admitted in January this year that she has seriously considered using a sperm donor to have another baby, it’s clear she’s done waiting around for “Mr Right” and is determined to go it alone. We’re told, “She adores Bear so much and being a mother is the best thing in her life, so she wants to make sure he has siblings more than anything. While she is keeping her plans quiet, she has hinted to friends she’s exploring her options and ready to do it.”
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Back in January, Cheryl admitted in an interview that the idea of having more children using a sperm donor made her “very happy”. She went on to say, “If time was on my side and I was in my twenties, I would wait and consider more options, or wait for somebody I felt was right.”
So, while our insider tells us the last couple of years have left Cheryl feeling “insecure” about where her life is at, it seems now she’s on a mission to get everything she wants – and she doesn’t need anyone’s help in getting it.
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